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Alexandra's avatar

"Remembering is not a pre-requisite for care, and I don’t need to ensure that my identity or needs are understood in order to embody love, or patience."

This reminds me of what Ram Dass says about the importance of "becoming nobody." Reading this letter, I find myself wondering if I'd be able to summon the kind of courage you have summoned to lean into (as you described it) the feeling of "insignificance" while providing critical care. My parents have chosen lives that don't include each other--or my sister and me--and they made those choices in disturbingly cruel ways. Could I be the kind of person that shows up as a "nobody," ready to help if ever they should need me, regardless of the damage they've done? I'm not certain I'm that giving or understanding. Could my sister? Most likely yes. Could I be firm enough in my indifference to let her do it all alone? I don't know yet.

Those thoughts aside, I wanted to say that your writing is both graceful and precise, and I have been at various points moved, reassured, and laid bare by reading your letters. I know it's going to be a good day when your work hits my inbox, and I think it's a safe bet that I'm not the only one who feels that way.

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Robyn's avatar

Such a beautiful letter, I’m going to be thinking about it for a long time. Whenever I’m reading something of yours, I never want it to end so I try to read as slowly as I can and savour it…but it’s hard as your words are just so perfect I want to gobble them up!

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